Friday, September 12, 2014

Bisque Post: Being Lost in a Foreign City

Anyone who knew me during highschool in America probably knows that I am terrible at directions and could probably get lost walking a straight line (sidenote: that literally happened my first day at Uni, I couldn't find Kenney because I hadn't walked far enough)

This gets a little worse when you may or may not have talked yourself up to your host mother saying you know how to get home from school. (another sidenote: this was like, a week ago, so situation is now under control and I'm a home-walking master) As in any slightly nerve wracking situation--I say slightly because if the situation was truly dire I'd be fine--I panicked a little bit. When I panic, I start focusing on how to defend myself. It seems a little silly to target my attention on how to incapacitate that person across the street or riding past on a bike instead of figuring out how to get home, but I'm going to blame that on the fight in 'fight or flight."

One thing that usually helps calm brewing anxiety attacks though, is thinking through the 'fight or flight' process. If you can work your way through the biological reasoning behind your panic, you can convince your body that, thinking logically, there's really no reason being lost means you need to know how to shank the guy down the block. This time thinking through the process, I started wondering about how the term 'fight or flight' could apply to my situation--there was no part of me preparing to run away. All of me was ready to go all action movie on the street. So, I ended up with a question for myself:

Can you call anxiety born out of being lost a 'fight or flight' response? Because, if you're lost, there's really no place to flee.

The answer to this question is probably no, because it's not 'fight or flight' it's anxiety, but that ruins any philosophical build up I had and is totally anticlimactic. I don't really have a response the question that isn't "Exactly. It's not fight or flight, is just fight."

---For anyone concerned, because I know anxiety isn't something most people take lightly, I'm totally fine now and everything is groovy. Public transportation is a breeze and I haven't truly gotten lost...yet. :D---

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